My Milestone

I don't expect everyone to rejoice as I am rejoicing on this - just because it's more or less been a personal struggle.  My family has seen me go through these struggles time after time & year after year.  Asking for prayer, hoping with all that is in me that my "faith of a mustard seed" would get God's attention and would grant my continual prayer....then I would experience discouragement and heartbreak as I would suffer another seizure. 

Did God hear my prayers?  Yes. Why weren't they answered immediately?! I have no clue. 

Many people who know me well, know the struggles in my life that I believe with all of my heart was the cause of these seizures.  There is no damage to my brain - as was discovered with MANY MRI's and EEG's and a long stay in the hospital to see if surgery was possible.  It's taken me over 20 years to have this epiphany.... the epileptic seizures were the result of emotional baggage. 

The location of these seizures...which is the common case - are normally in the temporal lobe (the sides of your forehead), but after tons of testing & a week in the hospital with wires stuck in my head (NOT pleasant) and a video camera aimed at me ready to record when a seizure would occour.  They deduced that the location was in the Hypothalimus right smack-dab in the middle of my brain.  They COULD do surgery...but to think of them having to cut my head apart...

The Hypothalamus controls emotions/mood, hunger, blood pressure, sleep cycles and many other functions - "they" say that it's what connects the feelings to the body. 

About six years ago I had a huge thing in my life happen which MAJORLY threw me off!!  It was ONE day...because of this thing, I ended up having 3 major seizures in one day.  I don't really want to say exactly what happened, but my family and a few close friends know the major emotional upset it was.    Anyway, an entire year had gone by with a seizure or two a month.  Kind of "normal".  During that year, I had A LOT of emotional healing going on...I know that sounds like psychobabble... but what else am I supposed to call it?

Perhaps I'll explain it another time.

That year - I had a MAJOR breakthrough...!!    The results of that healing:  No more Complex Partial seizures.  (Thank God!)

Now, I still deal with the Partial seizures... aka - gelastic seizures.  I have had these ones since I was real little, whereas the Complex Partial seizures started when I was 11.  To describe the Gelastic seizure to someone who doesn't really know anything about epilepsy is actually embarrassing for me.  In fact, if I end up having one in front of someone, I don't want to explain it.  I don't even want to admit to having a seizure.  Once the "S" word is mentioned, people start to panic and then get all weird.  If anyone is interested in knowing the signs... read this link.

Gelastic (Partial) Seizures

As I mentioned before, it's been a personal struggle, which yes, has effected others at times, but I think after 5 years people have lost interest and don't really care about my celebration...so I probably won't announce another year. 

I DO thank all of my friends who have acknowledged this milestone....you guys rock!!

Love you all!!